It's 11:00 PM and my urge to write is immense. After reading post after post of my favorite blogs, I've come to a conclusion. Life is inadequately beautiful. Others daily routines can be our fulfilment for the day, a fantasy we can live vicariously through. But, it's glorified in our minds and made to seem like it's productivity is thoroughly implanted.

I have been registering for my college classes and it is incredibly frustrating. Yet, the frustration I feel is accompanied by happiness, understanding, and progression. In my frustration I found that I had so many options available to me, it was completely my choice, however, sometimes I think we get too comfortable with our agency and when it's taken away we realize how helpful it actually was. Independence is a funny thing. There's such a negative connotation with being dependent. Why shouldn't we ask for help? Why shouldn't we want to make our load easier? Because we are a prideful people. What I would give for some help right now much like I was given by my high school counsellor. Nevertheless, my new found freedom is freeing (redundant?) but instead of feeling like I can spread my wings and fly, I feel as though I've been placed in a bigger bird cage with fewer birds. I feel alone in my endeavours. As my dad says "focus on the now" and I'm trying, but there's so much to look forward to and to anticipate. Until those days,

       This is for the 18 year old much like myself looking for guidance and inspiration through those college years. So, here's to you learning from my mistakes that I'll inevitably make! I've been accepted to USU and am over-joyed to be an Aggie! I've applied for housing at Snow Hall on campus and have met two girls that I'll hopefully be rooming with. I just paid $250 to apply for housing. College right? For these next couple months, I will be preparing for preparing to go to college, i.e. Looking up lists of what to buy before college. I'm in that final stretch of high school where you are dragging your feet through the finish line. I can see the finish line, but still have the huge bend to make it through. You could say the senioritis is real.
I've tried blogging before, but haven't been too successful. I've decided to give it another go because in my Ancy college craving state, I've been looking for blogs of people with college memories that I could live vicariously through until the much awaited day is here. However, upon my search, I've discovered not too many people keep a whole blog about their college experience, so that's what I'm going to do. Well, end of senior year/college life. I hope maybe someday there will be an
     My dad says to enjoy the here and now, my "glory days" but the problem is that you never really know when you're in your best days until you're out of them, sucks right? Life. We like to think that there's always something better coming! Always that light at the end of the tunnel, but the reality is there's just more life, more wanting, more waiting, something else we'll struggle with. But, there will also be wisdom and experience gained. You're better and stronger and ready to tackle the next tunnel. Hence the name for my blog, you'll probably find that through the years I will say I can't wait until (insert exciting thing)! Over and over. I'll get through college and want to graduate, get a degree, career, marriage, family, retirement, grandkids. And that's reality, we're always looking to the next step. So, one step at a time. I can't wait until college.